I find that time away from my writing is conducive to fear and insecurity. It's been about two and a half weeks since I've had the opportunity to sit down and work on my novel. We were away on vacation to Maine, so I could further research my book. We had a wonderful time and didn't want to come home. Then the holiday was upon us. It's taken a while to recover from being gone for so long. Unfortunately we hit the ground running as soon as we returned, with our days filled with activities and appointments. It's been overwhelming. I've been exhausted, and in need of a break, so I have time to regroup and think clearly. But up to this point, it hasn't happened. I'm not able to write in circumstances like this.
Then the longer I go without writing, the harder it is to begin again. Those nigglings of fear and doubt begin to creep into my thinking. Do I still have what it takes? Will I be able to get back into the swing of things with my writing? Will the creativity continue to flow or have I lost momentum? Such is the life of a writer. I don't know about all writers, but definitely with this one. :) This is what I've been struggling with and facing the past week or so.
So today, I chose to sit down and write - one word at a time. I've only written 32 words today on my novel, but each word gets me closer to breaking through the bonds that threaten to hold me fast. I choose victory and overcoming the fear....one little word at a time.